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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

me me me me me

what the hell... the entire chunk i just typed has gone MISSING!! now i have to retype again...

anyways, so here goes, i'm making this post cos px was complaining so give you see lor (gei ni kan)

i'm missing you lots baby!! call me call me come come give me a call!! ~~~

*singlish switch turn on*

got miss me or not? i miss you a lot leh, i hor, sometimes hor, will think of you think until i cry one leh, really leh. must believe me hor! i can't wait until the stupid a's over then can go 'pray pray' already lah. and hor, i can't wait until you faster come here to visit if not i so bored one leh.

i hor, lately feel very empty again lor. cannot fit into my class one. or maybe from the start then cannot fit in liao. sighs. life very hard one la. although i very sad but if i write this way then happier mah, not that sad lor. then you read liao faster contact me ok? i hope someone will see that i got make new post la, if not i type so much for nothing one leh. XD

*singlish switch turn off*

alright, so whose turn to post next? not mine! ^_^

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[7:03 AM]

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Monday, October 03, 2005

me again

yo...me again..i found another cristal ball that i like..
give some response ya?

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[12:47 PM]

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me again

nice cristal ball....the type that i always wanted...it's like there is another world out in that ball...you see that sea? that beach? that stars? those are something that i only see in my dream...if i were to have a choice, i would die there...peacefully....

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[12:43 PM]

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people....px here...
yo yo yo...hen jiu bu jian!!!
hope everything is fine ...

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[12:38 PM]

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

px here

hey there...sorry 4 not blogging...4 so long...
i know she hui has been quite pissed with me cos i erm...didn blog and both wen and i have bf liao...
well...all that i can say is that don't feel abandoned cos i never ever would have this thought of abandoning you....(wen han may be cos tt gal is really lazy) i don't think she would ever see this according to the no. of times she blogged...so never mind la...
haha... ok ok...you right? i know you know you are not abandoned lor...so don't say such things la...and the essay you read me last night remember? it is somewhat telling a true story and some what not....ha ha...
ok ok...i look toward to our end of year trip!!! cya!!

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[8:07 PM]

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Thursday, August 11, 2005

killer...

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[3:47 AM]

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midnight...

sh3 hui

Midnight is the time of day (or night, more or
less) that best represents you. You have
little patience for idiots and probably would
like nothing more than for people to just leave
you alone sometimes. People often see you as
being a very dark and cold person, and you
probably have some inner anger or resentment
towards those who have hurt you in the past.
You are almost always open to unusual ideas and
you like expressing yourself through writing
and/or drawing.

What Time of Day Best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
brought to you by

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[3:45 AM]

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Monday, July 04, 2005

......

sh3 hUi

heys... how come nobody's blogging? jus got off e fone wif wen han, px i miss u lots! u said u would call mi some other time during the june hols but how come nv call? i'm dying.... T_T pls call me and tok to me... sighs...

i cant stand my life! and it doesnt even matter whether i come here and blog or not cos nobody cares at all... nobody gives a damn... nobody...

sh3 hUi

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[8:58 AM]

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Saturday, June 25, 2005

i feel abandonned...

Sh3 hUi

heys everyone... me again... ok i c wen has finally blogged... good...

dunno why i suddenly feel like i'm all alone in this world... my uncle took my fone cos his fone was outta batt and he was rushing to malaysia fer work.. so i used my dad's fone and i sent about 5 messages to like i think 4 diff people... and i got nil reply... fine... everyone doesnt want to talk to me, to even communicate with me... wat else can i say... i'm abandonned by the rest of the world, as i have decided to abandon them in the first place.... wat do you call this, retribution?

it's one plus in the morning here and i'm still up typing... mid years starts on monday and i'm here blogging... have yet to touch anything at all, seriously nothing done throughout the one month... after all i was sick fer 2 weeks and was at the hospital taking care of my cousin fer one week... the last week was apparently spent on slacking... did not meet with anyone except wen and jing chuan during the holidays... i dunno why but i cant get attached to anyone else (other than you two and some other close frenz) now. in fact i'm also losing contact with practically everyone...

fer a period of time i thought i could find a lotta new friends in my class but i'm pondering over that point now. i feel no bonding, no exchange of spiritual emotions. i do not have that special bonding with them. it's like without them i'm still me and without me they're still them.

i feel like crying. to be able to let my miseries and unhappiness slip out of my eyes, wetting my face and letting it go would be such a blessing to me. but i cant do it. i cant cry. there're no tears fer me to cry out. the emptiness inside mi fills mi up, makes mi feel bloated. it is giving me a headache. nobody cares.

nobody cares.

i started thinking about myself. i looked back at me and the things i did, the thoughts i had. and i saw myself as an evil, dark, selfish, petty, irresponsible and complicated person. i am so stupid, brainless and idiotic that i feel ashamed of myself. the blood flowing in me is dirty, as dirty as my mind. it's like a doll that's all torn up, ragged and stained with blood and dirt. the dried blood caked up against the doll, covering her eyes, her heart. like me. my eyes, my heart are covered with blood. i can see and feel nothing. i can only look on with emptiness exploding in me.

i know not what i am thinking. maybe i am more complicated than i thought or expected. i know not what to expect. i know not what to feel, what to think. i know not how i should live. i know not even what i live fer. my existence is of no importance to anyone at all...

here's a song dedicated to u guys, sung and written by nicholas tse and lyrics by stephen fung (feng2 de2 lun2)

Let Me Die

Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to me goodnight
Don't wake when the lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby

It's time to say farewell
No need to cry or feeling sorrow
It's alright, all in the book of life
Heaven grant me one last wish i beg you
Let me say these words before i go

I will love you til the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from balck to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more

Are we at war tonight
Will be there angels whispering to me goodnight
Don't wake when the lightning strikes
Heaven grant me one last wish i beg you
Let me say these words before I go

I will love you til the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can give me strength to fight
Til the sky is burning, it's the end of time

Look ahead tomorrow, a long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine, don't let it go
You're the only reason night ain't growing cold
What will I do, without you

I will love you til the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can make my world so bright
Life, no longer empty
With you in my heart, in my heart

ok i know this is a very long entry (i tried to make the fonts moderately big so that i don't blind anyone out there) but the song is really nice (i wonder what it feels when my life is no longer empty??) and i hope maybe you guys can try listening to it.. ok then, til next time....

Sh3 hUi

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[9:51 AM]

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Friday, June 24, 2005

hey my beloved px n hui!=)

surprise surprise look who's here!haha
sorry took so long 4 me 2 come n blog..anw i jus came back from japan abt a wk ago.it was reali fun!i went into e hot springs n it was e first time in my whole life i c so many naked pp!yea but it was damn shiok inside e spring.veh relaxg.yea i went 2 alot of places..no time 2 write out all..
anw i c px is askg bout my cute guy..hoho yea we're gd.very gd.i noe u n ur bf oso veh gd.
anw im dead i oni studied 2 topics of my bio n nothg else.sighs.needa work harder!
rather late now im leavg alr.jus leavg a short msg 2 let u all noe dat im alive!muaha
tk care
wenwen

.:pengxiao:..:shehui:..:wenhan:.
[8:15 AM]

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